A stranger was encountered on the labyrinth of life, walking close on my heel. When asked, the stranger signed in American Sign Language, "you can call me Infertility."
Wednesday, May 30, 2012
No visits
I actually miss Aunt Flo......... Y'all know she hadn't visited me since that surgery in February.
You know, I miss my period at times.. I think it does make sense. It is a normal part of being a woman, and then suddenly, POOF it is gone. And while it is alot more convenient not to have it... at the same time, the lack of period is a reminder of what we've lost.
I too miss my period at times. I still get PMS like mad, and I miss the indicator. I miss feeling like an average 30/31 yr old who has a period every month. I feel like I got excised from a club I used to belong to.
Then the other part of me doesn't miss carrying tampons, break through bleeding, and the other not-so-fun parts of having a period.
Yes, you make sense. When I finally knew I'd never have children, that it wasn't even an option, I was surprised to find I welcomed (almost) having my period. Being infertile, being diagnosed with old eggs, knowing my body was too old to have a child, it all made me feel old and horrible. And so having a period actually helped with that. Mind you, 8 years on and I'm coming to terms with my age, and I'm well ready for AF to be gone.
I totally get it....I am 43 and am "post-menopausal" according to the blood work. Aunt Flo visits, but not too often anymore. I too have "old eggs" and am infertile and having my period on a regular basis, kept me feeling younger but at the same time, it would give me hope that if I am still getting my period regularly, then maybe, oh, just maybe, I can get pregnant. NOT! So, yes, it makes perfect sense!
You know, I miss my period at times.. I think it does make sense. It is a normal part of being a woman, and then suddenly, POOF it is gone. And while it is alot more convenient not to have it... at the same time, the lack of period is a reminder of what we've lost.
ReplyDeleteI too miss my period at times. I still get PMS like mad, and I miss the indicator. I miss feeling like an average 30/31 yr old who has a period every month. I feel like I got excised from a club I used to belong to.
Then the other part of me doesn't miss carrying tampons, break through bleeding, and the other not-so-fun parts of having a period.
So, you totally make sense to me.
Yes, you make sense. When I finally knew I'd never have children, that it wasn't even an option, I was surprised to find I welcomed (almost) having my period. Being infertile, being diagnosed with old eggs, knowing my body was too old to have a child, it all made me feel old and horrible. And so having a period actually helped with that. Mind you, 8 years on and I'm coming to terms with my age, and I'm well ready for AF to be gone.
ReplyDeleteI totally get it....I am 43 and am "post-menopausal" according to the blood work. Aunt Flo visits, but not too often anymore. I too have "old eggs" and am infertile and having my period on a regular basis, kept me feeling younger but at the same time, it would give me hope that if I am still getting my period regularly, then maybe, oh, just maybe, I can get pregnant. NOT! So, yes, it makes perfect sense!
ReplyDelete